Changing

I wrote a post about someone I know who has changed a lot and how it had bothered me. I then wrote about how I realised that it was more of a positive thing and that I too have changed. Changing is a part of life and I feel that we are constantly changing whether it be small changes or a big change.

Recently I discovered that I had fallen back into some negative habits even without realising! Instead of trying to change them so drastically I had thought more about them. A lot of the time I had been in such a rush to change things I didn’t like about myself that I did not give myself enough time to grow. When I had replayed some of these negative habits I knew that I needed to change them but this was like dejavu. Of course, we can’t be perfect, we make mistakes all the time, but if we keep replaying the negative habits that are having a big impact on our life then we need to listen to them. I’ve had to pause and try and understand a bit more. Overtime I know that I have changed, I have grown and it is due to allowing myself time to do so. To truly change our thought process and the ways in which we respond or react we need to have these negative experiences a few times so that one day we have a wake up call. When I’m referring to negative experiences here I am talking about our negative habits that, in turn, make things worse. It may sound silly thinking; well, why would I want to keep having these experiences? Can I not just change them? Of course. If you feel you can simply change them then do so. I believe it takes time.

This isn’t to say that we can eliminate our negative experiences, but, we can certainly change how we deal with them. It is easier said than done. I’ve had to have a deep think about what has been causing me pain and then finding some solutions and I have committed myself to doing a little bit of this each day. Sometimes, I have felt sad about why I felt so negative, but I feel better knowing that I am slowly working on moving on from it.

Changing, for me, means having a more positive mindset. It means acknowledging that some habits are still there even though I thought I got rid of them. I am getting better at understanding them and being appreciative of who I am now. I like that I have changed and I am not putting lots of pressure on changing other aspects of my life, I am just working on it one bit at a time.

You see, once it becomes ingrained in you then it’s hard to change. This is what life is about; challenging yourself, improving how you cope and see things. If we could wave a magic wand and change a few things that we don’t like about ourselves overnight then I am sure a lot of us would. Changing is a process.

There is a sense of achievement through changing. Take the journey.