February

I’m going to be posting about starting the new year in February. I think that despite talking about set backs being normal and okay I feel I have had one big set back recently that had a big impact on how I wanted to start my new year.

I have read about people who have decided to start their new year in February because they feel that January is a time to recover and repair. This makes a lot of sense. I feel as though January is a big rush to suddenly dive into your goals which means you’re more likely to experience burn out. Of course, this may not happen to everyone. Some people may start the new year fresh and use this as motivation to continue to do so. For me, it is too much pressure. I’m not saying that every month I’m going to use the excuse that I need a fresh start but, it’s great to plan and then start again when you feel it is right for you. For me, I feel so much more hopeful and positive knowing that February is my new beginning.

I’m not naive. I do know that things are not suddenly going to be one hundred per cent now that I’ve decided to reset my goals but it is certainly more clearer.

The truth is not long ago I had a nervous breakdown. This was the turning point for me. I knew that something had to change. I needed to look at how I was really feeling and then give myself more time. I needed time to help myself understand why I had felt all those strong feelings. I believe I now understand but, I’m not rushing into it. I’m taking each day to work on it a little bit at a time. It’s something I knew I had an issue with but never really took the time to fully engage in it and resolve it.

My difficulties have been with my emotions. I had to look back and see where my extreme emotions might’ve started. It has been a very long time that I have struggled. You could say that it has become a habit and that it has been engrained in me so, of course, it would be difficult to change this to say the least, but, I have to give myself credit. It has been a struggle for so long I’m not going to change it by reading a bit and writing a few notes here and there.

I know the impact and how harmful it is. I also know that it’ll take time. So, February, for me, is my way of starting something more positive, more forgiving and more refreshing. Perhaps February can be your new year too.